My addiction to cigarettes has defeated me numerous times. I'm still trying to figure out why I sabotage when I'm doing so good. I guess I'm still dealing with not enough stuff in stepping into my higher self. It's been a lifelong challenge and it's frustrating as hell.
But.. every time I quit for some time I feel I have defeated my addiction and that's an awesome feeling. Today I'm back to one, starting over and trying to wrap my head around quitting again. Trying to find all the reasons I deserve to be addiction free. I know I'm not alone. Most of us are fighting some sort of addiction and trying to recover from something.
I'll keep trying until I kick it for good and I'll never give up on myself. Every step I take in acknowledging my weaknesses to it helps me learn more about myself and how I tick. I'll get there, one step at a time, one day at a time.
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